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Day 15 of this Insanity

I cried today. For those who don't know, I am a big hugger. I am an extrovert who loves to hug people, a lot. I haven't had a good hug from a friend (other than my family) in a really long time and it is KILLING me. I have a tailgate tomorrow and everyone has to stay six feet apart. What's the point? It would kill me to go only to find out I can't say "hi" properly to my lovely friends. It's not only that I miss it, but I need it. There are so many people I just want to hug right now. BUT nevertheless, I actually had a good day today. Also, I have been tempted to eat so much junk food lately. Whenever I work-out consistently, this happens. I have been giving in to a lot of these temptations but not all, I figured that giving in to temptations that are not that bad is okay. Anyways, I need something new to do without seeing people because like I said, it would kill me t if I have to ask someone if it's okay to hug them.
I can't believe I will be a Senior in a few weeks. That is so crazy to me. It is going to be so weird, and sad to be at school without the seniors there. I feel like I'm gonna have a lot of mixed feelings when I go back to school for the first day. Some of those seniors were my closest friends and the people I look for comfort when I feel nervous or uncomfortable. It's like underclassmen are gonna expect for us to know everything because we have been in high school for 3 previous years. AHHHH. It's fine, I already act like I know everything anyways. jk. I graduate next year and that is soooo insane. I constantly think about college life; I imagine that my roommate and I are best friends and our dorm is super cute but we aren't THOSE people that party all night. When I think of college, I don't know why, but I think of being in the city. You would have your ballet studio with a ton of mirrors and windows that show you the city. Wow. I would love that so much. AHHHH and the stage is HUGE for performances!!! Geez I honestly sometimes can't wait for college. Adventure is out there!!!

Soph
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