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What the Lord is teaching me

 - I need to work and pay attention to my selfishness

- I declare when I do not want to become something 

- No matter where you are in life emotionally (high, or low) seek Him. Always seek Him. That will never be the wrong answer 

- there is power in trusting God 

- Yesterday I learned about generational patterns (not curses). There are generational behaviors that are not our fault but it is our choice to stop it. The generational pattern in my family is selfishness. From both sides of my family, there is severe selfishness. It is up to me to break that so that I don't del with it either and make my kids go through it

- I realized that I hear the Lord the most (or I draw closest to Him) when I feel I am at my lowest. Take advantage of that and open your eyes to see and ears to hear 

- he is teaching me how to take the secret place more seriously 

- that respect for my parents should go over any need for justice 

- BE SLOW TO SPEAK AND SLOW TO ANGER 

- one of the greatest gifts that the Lord gave me is that when i draw closer to him, my fear of missing our decreases SIGNIFICANTLY- it's still there, but it's often very faint and comes once and a while. When my identity is placed in someone that doesn't fail me, everything feels so much more stable- like putting the Lord as my firm foundation. 

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