Thoughts of a person with ADD

Over the weekend I have completely lost control. I danced so much the past week I literally did nothing for the past two days. On Saturday, I woke up, and never got out of my PJ's the whole day. I never even changed clothes. I don't think I have ever done that before, I literally watched movies and ate all day. It did not help that it was my time of the month day one that day. So everything that I did over the week (working out and eating super healthy) went down the drain in just two days. I literally ate so much on Saturday and Sunday. I also really hate cramping because when I do, this happens. Mothers day was better,  because I actually put on clothes and we got to celebrate my mother in wonderful different ways. Disclaimer: my main excuse to eat junk food and watch old movies all day was because I was cramping and I felt terrible (not even to mention sore from dancing so much). I also have not done that in a while so I think it is safe to say that I actually very much enjo...

I'm in such a good mood right now. I went to my room 5 times just now because I kept forgetting why I went there in the first place. It was deodorant, that's what I needed. Yes, I keep deodorant in my room, because I put it on constantly. I have a fear of 1) smelling bad and 2) crusty lips. So I always have chapstick and some kind of good-smelling lotion (or deodorant). I always kept deodorant in my dance bag just in case. No joke, sometimes when I felt like I need to re-apply deodorant but I don't have any, I would go to the bathroom and put soap and water on a drying sheet as a replacement for deodorant. It works. ANYWAYS, I ordered a couple of things on amazon for my friend's birthday tomorrow, but they won't come until JUNE. AHHHHHH. Literally why. Eat my shorts Corona. Sorry, but it's gonna be a short one today. Until next time :) Soph The Breakfast Club

I cried today. For those who don't know, I am a big hugger. I am an extrovert who loves to hug people, a lot. I haven't had a good hug from a friend (other than my family) in a really long time and it is KILLING me. I have a tailgate tomorrow and everyone has to stay six feet apart. What's the point? It would kill me to go only to find out I can't say "hi" properly to my lovely friends. It's not only that I miss it, but I need it. There are so many people I just want to hug right now. BUT nevertheless, I actually had a good day today. Also, I have been tempted to eat so much junk food lately. Whenever I work-out consistently, this happens. I have been giving in to a lot of these temptations but not all, I figured that giving in to temptations that are not that bad is okay. Anyways, I need something new to do without seeing people because like I said, it would kill me t if I have to ask someone if it's okay to hug them. I can't believe I will be a S...

So I have decided to write down everything that is due this week. Color coding things actually help and I love it. I just realized this morning that I have another choreographing project that is due this Sunday and while it's optional, I have to do it. I haven't even started it. The main thing going through my head is nothing but worry this week. I am not stressed, yet in a way, I am a little anxious. I also haven't had coffee in two days which is probably the reason as to why I feel so run-down and non-energetic. Coffee has now become a part of me and my mornings. OH! I created the PERFECT Sunday rainy day playlist. I love all of the songs on it. They are so relaxing and I love it. The thing is, I feel like I'm missing something important because I feel totally off this morning. It may be a lack of sleep, too much sleep, or maybe even the lack of being around people. Like said many times before, I am way too social for this and I miss my best friends. I have made very ...

OKAY. So does anyone ever get that really big hankering for a snack but your house doesn't have any good snacks a the moment? Well that happened to me the other day and I was gonna grab a random granola bar and I found this huge bag of chocolate granola bars and I LOVE THOSE. (that is one of the very few chocolate things I can eat because it barely had chocolate in it.) So not gonna lie, I ate about a million and a half of those. I also recently discovered that you can only dance a choreography a certain times in a row. Wow I am wiped out; and here I am eating cheese-its. Yes health. ANYWAYS. Funny story I randomly remembered. So I was in French 2 and we were taking a test and someone's phone went off. I didn't say anything because I thought whosever it was would turn it off. But little did I know, they never did. It just kept going, and going, and going and literally no one was saying anything. So I literally yelled "Whosever's phone that is, TURN IT OFF" and...

Okay so my family and I had a devotional the other day. Backstory, my brother has/had an imaginary friend that was a tree. His friends name, get ready, is Tommy Jerry. Omg that kid cracks me up. So when he would take out the dogs, he would talk to Tommy in the meantime. Every. Day. So we started to talk about prayer during our devotional and my dad told my brother that he has a better relationship with the tree than with Jesus. When I tell you, I lost it, I mean, I lost it. I still laugh at that till this day. Anyways, I am freaking out. This week is by far one of the busiest quarantine weeks I have ever had. Auditions, getting grades in, recording a buttload of videos, going to Pebblebrook on Thursday, mothers day planning, and literally so many other things I can't even keep up right now. It's fine. I STILL have an 87 and it is my only "B". AHHHHH give me an "A" already woman. I am getting really scared. My freshman year, I ended with all "A's...

Okay I am going to be completely honest with y'all. I recently found out that I am actually allergic to chocolate. AHHHH I'M SO MAD. Before, I kinda suspected it. But now, it is basically proven. I break out. Bad. Like...... really bad. I look disgusting right now. It's all because of CHOCOLATE. The worst part is that the only sweets that I like, is chocolate. That's it. That's all I like. Merry christmas to me. On top of that, I have a handful of auditions coming up. COME ON. Auditions for summer and stuff like that, starts now and I can't!!!! I hope that I grow out of it because it is KILLING me that I can't eat chocolate. Anyways, I hate feeling like I have to be in competition with someone but believe it or not, I sort-of am. Not an unhealthy competition, no! I absolutely love this person but I would love it if this person would just stop being so perfect so I can stop striving for a level above perfection, if that even exists. That is all I am going to ...